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Sunday, December 27th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:00 am.
  • 11:31 My laptop power cord may have died. This happened once before, but with time it came back. 9 hours and it hasn't come back... #
  • 11:37 I think I'm gonna see if my power adapter'll do the trick before buying a new one... Of course I should at least check prices. #
  • 11:38 I hate trying to keep up with JPopsuki... #
  • 11:58 I can't put my finger on it, but there's something irritating about the pacing of the Aoi Hana OP song. I think it's the haltingness. #
  • 12:52 Power cord's working again. Note to self: make sure to leave the cord unplugged when it stops working. #
  • 13:01 Yotsuba&! is 9th on the New York Times' best selling manga list for 12/13-19. Glad to hear it! #
  • 13:05 RT @jephjacques What yfrog.com/auukzyj #
  • 14:05 I'm amused how the characters in The Count of Monte Cristo keep dissing on Italian food. #
  • 15:05 Decided I shouldn't bike until spr., so I'll wait until then to fix it & have it in the basement until then. P. lent me his for emergencies. #
  • 17:56 Weird - I have a Walgreens purchase on NC that hasn't come through, while others from more recently have. #
  • 19:39 This close to giving up on trying to get a hardcover copy of my accounting textbook. I'm just not convinced it really IS hardcover. #
  • 20:48 @elliewix We're both lucking out today. Yay for us! #
  • 21:09 Dear self: hurry up and drop intro to business already. #
  • 21:47 Figuring out next year's planner. It's true that my lifestyle no longer necessitates an hour-by-hour breakdown; it's only "work" or not. #
  • 21:52 I think one of my resolutions for 2010 should be to kick my impatience. If I don't need it now, and there's good reason to wait, wait. #
  • 21:54 My candy cane's exploding as I peel off the wrapping... #
  • 22:02 I'm thinking something like tiny.cc/w96ge might fit my current needs best. Not for the financial stuff, but the format itself. #
  • 22:03 (Not that I couldn't use financial stuff in mine, but it seems tailored to a different type of financial situation.) #
  • 22:18 Hmm... I suppose I could just get one of those "free-form" week-per-spread planners and divide each day into an appt and to-do column... #
  • 22:49 Huh, an FSA doesn't actually pay for care - it only reimburses you. In which case I'd be better of just saving normally. #
  • 22:49 Huh, an FSA doesn't actually pay for care - it only reimburses you. In which case I'd be better of just saving on my own. #
  • 22:56 I literally clicked the drop button for intro. to business, then realized I need to wait until 8 am. Fucking Parkland. #
  • 23:09 Getting $20,000 of personal accident insurance at $26/year, to cover my loans, etc. #
  • 23:58 Dear health care networks: I don't fucking care about individual doctors. Just tell me what offices are available to me and what they cover! #
  • 00:11 Please let me not be making a huge mistake... #
  • 00:36 Alright, my health life has been handed over to the gods. Guess it's time to pick a doctor and dentist and schedule appointments. #
  • 00:38 *ups my bi-weekly savings deposit from $25 to $50* #
  • 00:49 I wonder if I should open a Health Savings account: www.patelco.org/accounts/hsa.aspx #
  • 00:54 Hmm, now I'm starting to wonder if I should have gone with the CDHP instead. But at my tax bracket, it wasn't a make-or-break difference. #
  • 01:02 I hate Walgreens paystubs. So confusing... #
  • 01:11 Note to self: ask how my March vacation will affect benefits. Will possibly need to cancel or shorten. ><; #
  • 01:27 WTF are these vertical stripes of darkened text on my monitor? Too tired to research. #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Saturday, December 26th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:00 am.
  • 11:24 Discovered 仕合わせ for the first time today. Whut? #
  • 01:13 I'm kind of weirded out by the name-dropping of the REAL American president on Doctor Who, esp. with this incredibly jabbing nature. #
  • 01:18 Da fuck? The end of The End of Time, part I is kind of hilarious. I'm totally laughing with you. #
  • 01:21 "Guy" seriously looks like the priest from Romeo + Juliet. But apparently it's not him. #
  • 01:50 寝たいけど眠くて階段上がって部屋に行けない。パソコンの前で寝よう。 #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Friday, December 25th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:01 am.
  • 10:48 @jlist そうですか。勉強になりました。^_^ #
  • 12:31 Damn. This whole Christmas thing keeps making me forget I need to be ready to leave for work at quarter-to-4. #
  • 13:27 Got a Gap gift card from Mom. Torn between durable Gap clothes and affordable Old Navy clothes. #
  • 13:51 @RedPenOfDoom Happy birthday! #happybirthdayandrew #
  • 13:53 Gah, still failing at the whole "doing shit" thing today. T minus 112 minutes. #
  • 14:31 I can't manage to stop feeling stupid in capris. #
  • 23:50 @JadeEJF Why is it snowing in Dallas and we get RAIN in C-U? #
  • 00:07 That was the longest 7-hour shift since I started at Walgreens. Apparently tomorrow'll be worse. Joy. At least I'm already ready for bed. #
  • 01:04 Mmm, I wonder if I should just ask Dad or Alana to send me Terra e w/ my Hikki poster, rather than re-DLing it. #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Thursday, December 24th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:00 am.
  • 11:39 Bike co-op's closed until Saturday, and you do repairs yourself w/ guidance there, so I'll need to find a time they're open & I'm not @ work #
  • 11:41 But Ellie said she'll ask if I can borrow Parthiban's bike, and in the mean time I can walk/bus/get occasional rides. #
  • 15:00 @elliewix No, I'm working until 11. #
  • 23:41 @Goldeneyeuro I hope you like it... #
  • 23:53 Oooh, next semester's anime lineup looks awesome. Gonna have to DL Tera e..., as my DVDs are in MPLS. Looking forward to re-watching. #
  • 00:00 Cleaners 'worth more to society' than bankers - study: news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/business/8410489.stm #
  • 00:01 I've forgotten just how bad the batteries on old-school (black+grey) iPods are. #
  • 01:37 @MikeDoughtyYeah Was this in the same building each time? #
  • 02:26 Smelly computer room continues to be smelly. Lazy Nastassja continues to be lazy. Gotta knock that off. Saturday, perhaps? #
  • 02:36 Was writing cards, but decided to watch Tokyo Godfathers instead? Probably gonna go to bed halfway through. #
  • 03:50 I just realized I bought way too many cards. 72? Really? If I don't open the third package, I'll return it. Wrote 9 cards tonight - bed now. #
  • 03:51 @jlist "Mina-san" deshou? ;) #
  • 04:12 Apparently Christmas in Chinese is 平安夜 (tranquil night). I like that. Although "heian'ya" sounds kinda stupid. #
  • 04:18 Got Endscape (the first Tera e... OP) stuck in my head. Good song, but damn it! Alright, it was bed time 3 hours ago, so Mushisi OST time. #
Comments: Sanity Check.


zuisa
Subject:China Loves Christmas
Time:6:04 pm.
Christmas is not an official holiday here. Everyone has to go to work, I still have class at 8:00AM (my listening comprehension teacher basically threatened to kill us all if we skipped for Christmas), but Chinese young people absolutely love Christmas. There's Christmas music playing in various places, giant inflatable Santa Clauses in many buildings, and Christmas trees. Today there are fancily wrapped apples for sale everywhere, because the Chinese word for Christmas Eve is 平安夜 (Ping'An Ye), and the word for apple is 苹果 (Pingguo) and since the two pings sound the same, everyone buys "平安果“ - Christmas Eve Apples.

Furthermore, the Chinese internet loves Christmas. Observe:

This is RenRen, China's answer to Facebook. I giggled a lot when I saw the Santa Hat imposed over my picture today. My 8 minutes ago status update you might notice there says that I wish everyone a happy Christmas Eve.


This is the homepage to Baidu, China's most popular website. It's basically Google (which is also popular here) but is far more kickass in that you can download pretty much every song ever.


Tudou is one of China's Youtube knock-offs - I personally much prefer Youku, but apparently Youku is uninterested that it's Christmas. Haha.


This is Zuosa, Chinese Twitter. I only use Zuosa because it let me link my account to my Twitter account, so while I still have no idea what anyone else is saying on Twitter, I can update mine. But, really... you can say a whole hell of a lot more in 140 Chinese characters than you can posting in English.



My tree!! And some of our cards. My roommate and I are well-loved, our TV top is full of cards too!! There are lights on this tree... not sure why they photographed so poorly!!


I also had no place to hang the other lights I got, so I just strung them around my headboard. I think it's festive!!

I'm not yet quite sure what Chinese people do on Christmas Day itself, as our teachers all kept saying "oh, only young people celebrate Christmas in China", but I'll be sure to let you all know!!
Comments: 3 went insane - Sanity Check.

Wednesday, December 23rd, 2009


tsukikage85
Subject:And I thought the Håll Om Mig Nu video couldn't get any better!
Time:11:36 am.
Mood: amused.
Music:Nanne - Håll Om Mig.


I like how she changed up the lyrics a little bit each time to keep it fresh.

Bought the song on iTunes, but somehow the song alone isn't as awesome.
Comments: Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Time:5:04 am.
  • 15:21 Occasionally I have bowel movements that do a wonderful job reminding me of one of the reasons I want to adopt. #
  • 23:15 @lugia222 You're welcome. #
  • 23:23 They're making a new live-action TokiKake? REALLY? After 3 live-action movies, 1 dorama, and the anime movie? #
  • 00:53 Getting to pay insurance premiums will be so EXCITING!! Good thing I was already planning on re-drawing my budget. #
  • 00:59 Seriously, though, a $5.67 biweekly dental premium w/ 2 free cleanings and 80% coverage on fillings and RCs? HEAVEN! (Or hell in the chair.) #
  • 01:22 So, apparently my detailed plan descriptions are out of date, talking about years-of-service tiers which were abandoned. #
  • 02:02 I really bunged up my knee after that accident today, didn't I? So sore... #
  • 02:13 I love comparison tools that ask you obvious questions. "Would you like lower premiums or lower co-pays?" If I knew I wouldn't need help! #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Tuesday, December 22nd, 2009


tsukikage85
Subject:Good and Bad News Bath
Time:11:12 pm.
Mood: sore.
Music:something from the first Mushishi soundtrack.
The good news:
Today when I punched in for work I got a message that I was now eligible for my benefits. I don't think that's quite right - I think what it means is that I will be in 31 days and now's the time to put in the paperwork. Anyways, I got a big packet of benefit information, and have to figure out all my insurance stuff. It's kind of overwhelming...

The bad news:
Got into a head-on bike collision on the way home from work today. Both of us were okay (although the fingertips on my right hand hurt for a good five minutes afterwards - they're still tingling), but I damaged my bike. Not sure of the full extent of the damage right now, but I know the front wheel won't rotate, and it looks like it's an issue with the breaking mechanism. Which meant I had to walk my bike home lifting up the front wheel the entire time. At least the back wheel was fine - it would have been even worse if I had had to carry the bike the whole way. Marcia's on winter break, so I'm going to ask if she can take me to the bike shop to get an estimate on it tomorrow.
Comments: 7 went insane - Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Time:5:00 am.
  • 10:26 That Avatar McDonald's commercial seems wrong somehow... #
  • 12:47 Sent out my 1st batch of X-Mas cards, including 2 to Germany. All with one first-class stamp. What's wrong with this picture? ^^; #
  • 14:47 Jesus sightings: www.youtube.com/watch?v=JvjGIkl2yDY #
  • 14:54 Man Gets 15 Years in Anime, Twilight Cross-Country Case tiny.cc/P11Uk #
  • 15:37 @baranoneko Do we get before and after pictures? #
  • 15:38 Watching Haibane, and considering Rakka and Mayuko (from NieA_7) as names for my computer. #
  • 15:40 Heh, I could rename my 200 GB "Kuu", as it seems to have had its day of flight long ago, and make the desktop the new Makoto. #
  • 16:16 @baranoneko Looks cute. :) Was your hair that curly before? #
  • 18:22 Really wishing I had remembered to save my Outlook data before switching computers, as I'm too lazy to hook things up again and get it. #
  • 19:03 HikaGo's streaming again, this time on Viz' own portal. Too bad there's still no hope of a completed DVD release. :( #
  • 19:34 Loving Liz and Patty's voice actors. Makes up for Black Star's, I'd say. Death's isn't too bad, either. #
  • 21:19 Things I need to buy soon: planner pages, pens, and highlighters. Unfortunately Walgreens won't have good ones, so I'll go to Staples. #
  • 21:37 For god knows what reason, the percussion in Golden Time Lover's getting to me tonight. Altered state of mind from sleep dep., perhaps? #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Monday, December 21st, 2009


tsukikage85
Subject:Yay new clothes, but...
Time:10:23 am.
Mood: embarrassed.
Music:E.R. on T.V..
My mom sent me hand-me-downs.

From Allie.

My 7.5-year-younger sister.

FML.
Comments: Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Time:5:01 am.
  • 13:21 Well, my macro grade finally posted - still waiting on micro. But at least I have a shiny, shiny 4.000 through the end of next semester. #
  • 13:30 I can has "Toki ni Ai wa" karaoke mp3. ^_^ #
  • 14:05 As the media collection on my computer grows, I need to find a better way to organize it. Maybe into "good", "meh", and "to watch"? #
  • 14:06 I suppose a "watching" category would be valuable too. #
  • 14:14 When I say take no action when inserting a video disc I don't mean stop playing what I'm watching and play what I inserted when I hit start. #
  • 15:07 Annik Ruebens is talking about Wolfram Alpha on Ersatz.tv. Tee hee. (I seem to like that word.) #
  • 18:27 @seoulless What gave you the opportunity to learn this? #
  • 21:02 Trying to re-learn how to make my peppermint/Chinese honeydew white blend. It's been at least a year, if not more. #
  • 21:03 (Hardest part - white and herbal tea have quite different brewing temps and times.) #
  • 21:18 I don't think I've listed to the full version of ホログラム before. Which is sad, 'cuz it's good. #
  • 21:34 The tea didn't turn out too bad. Need to try to bring out the honeydew a bit more - probably adjust the proportions. #
  • 21:39 Damn it, turns out the content on the E7 disc is FUBARed as well. Maybe I can find a cheap copy online? #
  • 21:40 Which reminds me, I had a scare on disc 8 of Seirei no Moribito, but a wipe-down was all it needed. Yokatta... #
  • 21:41 Speaking of Seirei no Moribito, it's funny how I can blab on-and-on about popcorn shows, but with more serious ones I don't say a peep. #
  • 21:45 "Bandai does not guarantee it's DVDs to work in anything other than an actual DVD player." datte. Guess I'll have to give that a try. #
  • 21:50 Awesome! It's only $3 at RightStuf right now! #
  • 22:24 Well, i guess I'll use this as my chance to finish re-watching Haibane Renmei (the only non-E7 series I'm re-watching on DVD that's in C-U). #
  • 23:34 Guess Haibane isn't as good of a background show as I remembered - too much important things I forgot and am missing. First Contact, then? #
  • 23:36 Ooh, perfect opportunity to watch Eva 1.01, since I've heard it's mostly the same as the series. #
  • 23:43 1.5 mins. in, and I can tell it's too hard to ignore. Back to First Contact, but that might end up being hard to ignore too. Maybe a CD? #
  • 00:13 Hopefully I just fixed the problem I was having with Ask.com intercepting my URLs even after uninstalling the toolbar. #
  • 00:13 (For the record, I only installed the toolbar accidentally.) #
  • 00:31 syndicated.livejournal.com/xkcd_rss/168674.html So, so true. #
  • 00:34 Watching the real The Flying Car, and somehow the faces don't seem to match the voices. That's imprintation for you. #
  • 00:52 That's... bad. Why do I have $80 more than my register says I should? #
  • 01:13 it was just two arithmetic blunders. Large, embarrassing ones. Bed time? (I had no idea it was 1 already - thought 10 or 11!) #
  • 02:21 Jonathan Frakes' audio commentary isn't all that informative, but it's quite entertaining. #
  • 03:05 Trying to write Christmas cards to my German family. Whoo. #
  • 03:45 Next year I have GOT to get an earlier start on writing my Christmas cards. I think some are gonna have to arrive after Christmas. #
Comments: Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Subject:another quote
Time:1:32 am.
Mood: tired.
Music:Star Trek: First Contact.
"It's so simple. The Borg hurt you, and now you're going to hurt them back."
"In my century, we don't succumb to revenge. We have a more evolved sensibility."
"Bullshit!"

It's nice to see holes poked into the show's Utopian bubble. I'd like to quote the whole scene, really, but I'm too lazy.

[EDIT:
"So much for the Enterprise-E."
"We barely knew her."
"You think they'll build another one?"
"Plenty of letters left in the alphabet."

Hah! Waitin' for the Enterprise-W.]
Comments: Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Subject:quote
Time:12:29 am.
Mood: hot.
Music:Star Trek: First Contact.
"Captain, I believe I am feeling anxiety. It is an intriguing sensation. A most distracting--"
"Data, I'm sure it's a fascinating experience, but perhaps you should deactivate your emotion chip for now."
"Good idea, sir. Done."
"Data, there are times that I envy you."
- Picard and Data, from Star Trek: First Contact

Ugh, my room's too hot. I have nothing but my sports bra on on top, too. If only I could think of it as summer, I'd be able to even enjoy this, but my "living life" psychology seems to be immune to placebo effects. I wonder how much money I'd be wasting to open the windows...
Comments: Sanity Check.

Sunday, December 20th, 2009


happy_daiz
Subject:The End of Year Meme!
Time:2:49 pm.
Mood: thoughtful.
I can't believe I'm the first person on my flist to do this. I'm early for once!

Read more... )
Comments: Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Time:5:00 am.
  • 21:04 According to Peter of @jlist, "Up" is called "Uncle Carl's Flying House" in Japan. Reminds me of "The Incredibles" -> "Mr. Incredible". #
  • 21:08 @lugia222 You'll have to tell me how it is. I wanted to see it in theaters, but never got around to it... #
  • 21:11 @seoulless Noooooo... Can you replace the battery? :( *is chou depressed* #
  • 22:31 Dear UMN and Parkland: please give me the option of opting out of paper billing statements. They're redundant and a waste of paper. #
  • 23:08 Eeeewwwwwwww... iknowyouwillbehappyhere.wordpress.com/2009/01/07/the-polish-plait/ #
  • 23:46 Ugh, fuck you, BANDAI, and your defective discs. *headdesks* The OP of ep. 34 of E7 is FUBARed. At least the story part's okay (so far). #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Saturday, December 19th, 2009


tsukikage85
Subject:short indie movie
Time:10:56 pm.
Mood: hungry.
Found this 11.5 minute movie on YouTube. Apparently it was the winner of Best Narrative Short at the 2008 Tribeca Film Festival and nominated for an Oscar. I enjoyed it, but then again it somewhat catered to my weird-ass tastes.

Comments: 3 went insane - Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Subject:Dear Japan: I give up on you.
Time:9:48 pm.
Mood: okay.
Music:Annik Rubens und Herr Moose - ETV 04 - ReCaptcha, Solarzellen, Identitätsklau, Grundeinkommen.


TGIF!

[EDIT: Alright, the end of this video was cool:
]
Comments: 6 went insane - Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Time:5:00 am.
  • 10:46 E.R.: If you're married, one of you will die. #
  • 11:10 If anime eyes were real: tinyurl.com/ye9g67t *is terrified* #
  • 12:36 From @GrammarGirl: "Also, I know some of you will ask what we call this decade, but a definitive name has not emer (cont) tl.gd/19sca #
  • 12:40 @JapanesePod101 is doing a series on gestures, 4 of which have been shown so far: anime has taught me all of them. #
  • 12:44 ママがレープクーヘンを送ってくれる。やった!^_^ (Umm... Mama wird mir Lebkuchen shicken? Why can't I even form the future tense anymore?) #
  • 13:54 I think I need to buy a new monitor soon, as the wiring's going bad and the power keeps going out; eventually wiggling the wires won't work. #
  • 13:55 @lugia222 Congrats. :) #
  • 13:59 Oooh, of course! I can just get one second-hand on craigslist or something. #
  • 14:00 Lulz, maybe I'll gtet a free 19" CRT monitor. #
  • 14:02 Actually, I suppose first I should see if I can get my current one repaired. Time to call around. #
  • 14:13 "What is the light novel like? Is it, like, just a series of charts with a little wolf girl in the corner who's naked?" - ANNCast #
  • 14:28 @jlist twitpic.com/u0znn - I think the censorship bar over her eyes amuses me the most. #
  • 15:43 What a relief... Turns out the cables I thought weren't accessible actually are, the power cord had just shifted down, and I pushed it back. #
  • 19:16 www.widescreen.org/widescreen_academy.shtml Thank you! #
  • 02:53 @Goldeneyeuro Never ordered from Yesasia, but I have ordered from CDJapan... twice?... and I had very good experiences with them. #
  • 02:55 @belindabird I have to worry that the site's being attacked by legal groups or something... #
  • 02:56 Avatar was awesome. Long, but awesome. I think I finally understand Blu-ray. Bed now. #
  • 03:00 Oh, and I think I finally feel honestly comfortable (vs. "homg stranger" awkward) around Parthiban. Yay! #
Comments: Sanity Check.


zuisa
Subject:Calling All Questions!!
Time:2:27 pm.
I don't write about China enough. I mean to, but my life here pretty day-to-day and full of me doing things that aren't in any way remarkable or exotic, and so sometimes I forget that life in China, and particularly Harbin, is so very different from life in the US.

And so, in an attempt to make myself write more about China and at the same time deflect responsibility off my myself, I am coming to you guys!!

What do you want to know about life in China?

Ask anything! Big things, small things, whatever! People here ask me well-intentioned but vaguely offensive questions about life in America all the time, so don't worry too much if you don't think your question is not "PC" or whatever. I will be happy to dedicate an entire entry to everyone's questions about China, and so I write more, you read more, and everyone wins!!!
Comments: 4 went insane - Sanity Check.

Friday, December 18th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:01 am.
  • 10:55 I really wish MyAnimeList moved shows that you're re-watching but are on-hold out of the currently watching list. My plate feels too full. #
  • 14:03 Totally out of green tea. Guess I'll have to put up with bagged until my next batch of bills are paid off. #
  • 02:19 WTF, they turned Eureka into a moe blob. Do not want! #
Comments: Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Subject:Tostitos tortilla chips
Time:12:38 am.
Mood: disappointed.
I guess Twitter's down right now?
The other day I was really in the mood for tortilla chips and salsa, so I bought some at Walgreens, but when I came home I discovered we had an open bag of tortilla chips so I had those instead. So now I opened the Tostitos chips I had bought, and am distressed with how unimpressive they are. Primarily, they're super thin and just kind of crumble at the slightest pressure, which makes for an oddly frustrating experience. So yeah, not buying Tostitos' tortilla chips again. :(
Comments: 5 went insane - Sanity Check.

Thursday, December 17th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:01 am.
  • 12:22 I need a name for my 2 TB external. My 200 GB is Makoto, my computer is Yukino, my netbook is Yotsuba. Ideas? #
  • 12:23 On that note, I wonder if I should give Makoto to Alana. Hypothetically it's for my netbook, but I never use it. #
  • 12:27 Just called Alana about Makoto, and she said Dad was already giving her a 250 GB external of his. #
  • 23:58 RT @ebertchicago Warner's will start releasing ALL films in 3-packs of Blu-ray, DVD & a digital copy! [I actually don't like these...] #
  • 00:07 child!Eureka looks like a Hetalia character. #
Comments: 4 went insane - Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Subject:elders' deaths
Time:2:20 am.
Mood: distressed.
Music:the train horn blowing.
It's nearly two in the morning, I'm laying in bed with the lights off trying to sleep, and my mind is obsessing over the truth that my grandpa could very easily die in the next five years, or earlier. That's gut-wrenching enough, but add to that that it's very possible he could go without warning; without me having a chance to say all the things I want to. If I can't become an adult before he passes away, I at least want to promise him that I will, and anshin saseru him about tings like that. Or maybe he already is anshin, but for my own sake... I feel like I want some sort of blessing from him? Or I want him to assure me that he's anshin, so I don't have to feel bad about that?

It's been.. Two years? Maybe one. I know it was winter, anyway... Siince I had my last really serious flare-ups of my necrophobia. But especially since grandpa had his mini-stroke this week, my anxieties surrounding my grandpa, and even my parents, eventually being dead and removed from my world has flared up for the first time in I think much longer. I almost acknowledge and accept my own death more than I do any of theirs. I know nearly everyone has to face that pain and void, but right now... I can't possibly fathom how they do. Instead I just remain in a sort of denial or temporary ignorance of it. (Truth be told, I thnk this is part of how I get by when my necrophobia isn't flared up - I manage to go through life with nothing but a superficial acknowledgment of my own eventual death.)

When I was talking to Grandpa while he was in the hospital the other day, I casually asked him if it was scary for him. He said he wasn't scared of death at all; it would just be over. (I think Dad used to be rather scared, but now he's essentially in the same place; I wonder if that's a sign that I'll eventually get there too...) So obviously, I've lightly broached the topic of him dying, but I have no idea how to bring up the things I want to tell him before he goes. It's just so... morbid. And even if he tells me he's not scared, it still seems insensitive. But as I said, although I can do nothing to escape from my anxiety over his eventual death, maybe if I can get those things off my chest, I can at least relieve my anxiety about that, as well as any regret I might have when he does go.

Roy (Roger's dad), Oma, and Opa are a whole 'nother issue. I really need to call Roy this weekend, methinks. I haven't talked to him in... Maybe two years as well. ><; But Oma and Opa... Yeah. I almost feel like that's a lost cause. :( In a way I'm grateful that I haven't seen them in so long, since the loss will probably be far less painful, but I think the guilt will be so, so much worse.

On the plus side, I think typing this out has calmed my mind down enough to let me go to sleep. Yay!
Comments: 2 went insane - Sanity Check.

Wednesday, December 16th, 2009


tsukikage85
Subject:paid account discounts available
Time:11:55 pm.
Mood: okay.
Happy holiday promotion!
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Thursday, December 17th, 2009


zuisa
Subject:The Anonymous Love Meme!
Time:12:08 am.
'Tis the season to... make a million memes to let everyone know just how much you appreciate them and love them. :D

Here's the plan: You comment with your username, and people will comment ANONYMOUSLY with things they love and cherish about you. I say anonymously because it makes the atmosphere lighter and more mysterious, kind of like a Secret Santa only with love and holiday cheer! People will wonder who these caring people are and appreciate the fact that they exist, not only the fact that they may be best friends with them.

Then find people you care about and have something nice to say to - even if you don't know them! - and leave them something that will make their heart feel a little warmer at night. This way, the love will go around and around and the magical spirit of the season can be cherished and appreciated by all.

Don't forget to pass the goodwill on to others and increase the flow of positive, caring energy!


Here's the link to me!!!

Click click!
Comments: Sanity Check.

Wednesday, December 16th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:01 am.
  • 14:22 Definitely wishing I had a physical textbook right now. Soon enough... #
  • 14:30 @seoulless That's a really tough hint there... Well, tell whoever got it congratulations for me. #
  • 23:09 Yuurisan got another translator for 07-GHOST. It's a bit embarrassing, but I know it's for the best. #
  • 23:46 @mizunocaitlin I always got the feeling that all humans on Star Trek were agnostic if not atheist. Convos. seemed to flow that way. #
  • 00:15 My iTunes music folder has an insane file path: C:\Users\tsukikage\Music\iTunes\iTunes Media\Music WTF? I need to do something about that. #
  • 00:29 Dear iTunes and Google Talk: Please stop crashing on me. That'd be great. #
  • 01:57 Why do I not automatically know what "retained earnings" is? I mean, clearly they're "earnings" that are "retained", right? *Googles* #
  • 01:58 "the portion of net income which is retained by the corporation rather than distributed to its owners as dividends"だって #
  • 02:23 Out of curiosity, does anyone know of any English bands with male singers who have J-Rock (visual kei?)-style "pretty voices"? #
  • 02:26 I wonder if Talking Heads counts... 感じが全然違うけど。 #
  • 02:50 Gotta love the Yami no Matsuei Quid Pro Quo AMV...WHY AM I NOT ASLEEP?! #
  • 02:54 In lieu of my lack of creativity, can I just re-make other's AMVs with modern quality video? Crediting them, of course. #
  • 03:00 "She hates time / Make it stop" #
  • 03:02 Kay. Bed. Now. For real. *shuts down computer* #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Tuesday, December 15th, 2009


tsukikage85
Time:5:00 am.
  • 14:03 The Seirei no Moribito art box arrived today, and I am pleased. :) It's pretty much your standard Geneon artbox quality #
  • 14:11 "Secular society began taking Christ out of Christmas when they started calling it "Xmas" – and we let it happen." *sporfle* orly? #
  • 16:35 Trying to figure out how to access the shared files on my desktop from my netbook, and failing. #
  • 18:14 @Goldeneyeuro Good luck! #
  • 18:51 地階じゃ全然集中できない、ロッキングチェアなどがうるさすぎて…ちょっと嫌い。 #
  • 19:59 Dear Japan: get over yourself and start having joint custody already. Or at least regular visitation. It causes far more good than harm. #
  • 21:18 'parrently it's 4 degrees F in MPLS, vs 35 here. I really have moved to a warmer place. :-/ I WANT WINTER!! #
  • 21:19 Oooh, Dec. 31st is going to be a full moon! Sounds perfect. :) #
  • 21:56 Huh. I noticed Twitter has partially weaned me from my habit of putting two spaces after sentences. #
  • 21:58 @seoulless Yah, but I've always idealized Lake Wobegon weather. #
  • 21:59 From the Wikipedia article on Lake Wobegon: "Microsoft Virtual Earth now returns a location when Lake Wobegon, MN (cont) tl.gd/18p19 #
  • 22:18 @johnmoe Is it really that much different than other Apple stores? (It's the only one I've been to.) #
  • 23:05 tinyurl.com/ye63kbr ... *bursts into laughter* (narfiknarfik is the comm's main, and blatant, troll) #
  • 23:25 I wonder how much it would cost to print out and bind my scans of the TokiKake novel. #
  • 23:32 *is suddenly unable to remember the English word for バイキング, coming out only with "Viking"* #
  • 23:40 I just love how every time Coal shakes his head, I get kitty nose drool all over my keyboard. #
  • 23:49 One of the words I find hardest to translate from Japanese: sasuga. #
  • 00:46 Caught up on Higepiyo again. Maybe, just maybe, I'll get my but back in gear on 07-GHOST? I'm so useless as a translator... &gt;&lt;;;;;; #
  • 00:48 Dude, and just after I sent my scripts in for 30 and 31, we released eps. 24-29 all at once! #
  • 01:58 Why do I feel like the day was wasted, even though despite having no real obligations I still got a few things done? #
  • 02:03 And why do I feel like it'd be bad for me to go to bed instead of study accounting? The class doesn't even start for 4 weeks! #
Comments: 6 went insane - Sanity Check.

Monday, December 14th, 2009


zuisa
Subject:So You Think You Can Dance
Time:10:26 pm.
I am, as I write this, watching last week's episode of So You Think You Can Dance (I cannot believe this week is already the finale!!!1!) and I have some thoughts. I will write some now, and then probably add as I watch the episode, because that seems like it could be good fun.

It's so nice to watch a show where the host and judges all seem to genuinely like the contestants and want them to succeed. And even Mary Murphy, with all her screaming, manages to give honest, detailed, appropriate technical feedback. I feel like on American Idol Simon is almost actively rooting for them to fail, and Ryan Seacrest is such a tool his opinions don't seem to matter anyway. So there's that.

Ok, this is the two-weeks-ago episode, but how AWESOMELY AWESOME was Jakob and Ellenore's contemporary piece by Sonya? I was so happy that the judges loved it as much as I did. Another favorite from this season was Jakob and Ashleigh's hip-hop. Clearly, I just love Jakob. He is freakishly talented. Freakishly. And I started the season thinking Ashleigh was a little obnoxious and not as talented as the rest of them, but now I really like her. It's weird.

I decided that you all need to see these performances too. I don't think I can embed Youku videos (or, if I can, I just don't know what button does it) but here are links to the two aforementioned dances that you basically need to watch. GO. CLICK THE BUTTONS, YOU WON'T BE SORRY.

1. Ashleigh & Jakob - Watcha Say
2. Ellenore & Jakob - Tore My Heart

So... more thoughts.

-The Ellenore/Legacy dance with the table? EPIC.
-Poor Russell - a replacement dancer again? He's a fantastic, fantastic dancer, and I would have loved to see him dance with Ashleigh!! This show also has made me appreciate hip-hop, when my hip-hop class here at Heilongjiang University is.... less than stellar. The teacher can't consistently keep the right rhythm when counting to 8 in the warmups. But, I paid ¥30 for the entire semester and there is no other dance class. So I'll take when I can get!!
-Kathryn is just delightful. Her ballroom with Ryan was super awesome. Ryan... I don't really care for, and I can't quite say why. He's good, obviously, but I like all the other guys better.
-Russell in a Santa Claus outfit! Awesome. Russell is awesome.
-I can never decide if I think Mollee is endearing or annoying. I suppose it's a fine line, isn't it? But hooray, Broadway routine! They always make me happy. And it's from Annie! Couldn't make me happier.
-Not feeling this Legacy/Ellenore hip-hop. But I think it's more the choreography than them, because they are good dancers... especially Ellenore. I usually love Tabitha and Napoleon routines, so this is sad.
-Okay, it was really sweet that Ryan asked people to vote for Ashleigh instead of him. A couple points for Ryan.
-Aaaand Russell gets cooler and cooler. Yay Bollywood routine!!! But, again, sad that there's no Ashleigh.

So... yeah. I love this show, and I'm so glad that I decided to watch it this season!! I know who gets cut from this episode, and... eh, I like everyone. So I don't know how I feel about it. The problem is that, of the people left, I love everyone!!! But I think my favorites might be...oh, all of them. Except Ryan. Although he did get points for sending his votes to Ashleigh.
Comments: 2 went insane - Sanity Check.


tsukikage85
Time:5:01 am.
  • 22:29 @baranoneko Can't you just put all the ornaments out of her reach? Or maybe put a pet fence around the tree? #
  • 23:19 I really want to buy my accounting textbook and get started early, but I asked for it for x-mas, and I don't want two copies... #
  • 23:34 Oooh, nice - I can get access to the first chapter free! Def. gonna take advantage of that for now. #
  • 23:48 Just DLed and installed Trillian, and found that it supports GTalk now. One less chat program open is a good thing. :) #
  • 00:05 @baranoneko How long has it? I'm surprised that I never got any sort of update message about it. #
  • 00:09 I'll defend myself from your gun with my MIGHTY PEBBLE!!! #
  • 00:11 I still haven't decided whether to drop intro. to business or not... I really should, esp. if I want to take some classes as honors. #
  • 00:20 Was watching a Code Geass AMV, and there's this shot of Suzaku in his pilot suit... and his butt is VERY outlined. o.O #
  • 00:56 Igirisu rocks it out! #
  • 02:25 Wish .pdfs had a way of setting bookmarks... Although I suppose a separate .txt telling me what page I was last on would work. #
Comments: Sanity Check.

Sunday, December 13th, 2009


tsukikage85
Subject:wrong order
Time:11:10 pm.
Mood: embarrassed.
Oops. I just accidentally watched the last episode of Michiko to Hacchin before the penultimate one, and didn't realize it until the VERY end. That would explain why I felt something was missing... The question now is, do I want to bother to watch the penultimate episode? It seems like an awful lot of trouble for a series I didn't care for that much.
Comments: 1 went insane - Sanity Check.

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